I went out for Chinese food with Beki, sobered up, stole chocolate, drank tea - and settled in for another long game of Scrabble against Jamie. And I have won! By 18 points. 267 to 249. And now on to bigger goals, bigger battles, the war between my schoolbooks and me, between better living and the type I live now, a battle for my soul, or whatever you want to call it. I will prevail, I know it. I am going to go read some Rilke, some Tolstoy, am going to live art, live life, and beat it, beat my old self by at least 17 points. More like 17 million. As Jamie would say, "Right on!"