I had coffee today for the first time in three weeks, and as a result I was hyped up, full of energy and went out to a bar for the first time in three weeks. Coffee will equal beer evenutally is today's lesson. I talked to two people with Sarasota connections at the Phoenix tonight, and I also talked to my long time crush, Christopher, only to be rejected again with a polite, "I have to go home." And I love seeing a boy that I want but can't have every time I go out. The desire, the intense desire that occurs every time I see this boy, is so worth the rejections that only instensify the pleasure, the buzz of desiring someone unattainable. And one day, a cute boy will like me back. Bjork knows. One day, it'll happen, it'll all come true.