Thursday, June 23, 2005
I am blessed with a certain glow these past couple days and I don't know how to describe it. I would like to be able to say that it is my own doing, but really, some days, I am not sure that it isn't something planetary, that occasionally you will have those moments where you emit something and people see it and are nice to you. I talked to a couple strangers last night and they were so nice in a way that I don't usually experience when I talk to strangers. I kissed Zach. And today, just now, I was walking to the bank, waiting at the light across the street from Matt's house and thought how cool it would be if he was coming out of his house right then while I was waiting to cross the street. He didn't come out, but a couple blocks away, when I entered the bank, there he was about to leave the bank. He was so friendly. Surely, I must have seen him during the daytime, but today, I realized that it is very likely that I hadn't, because my God, his eyes in that afternoon sunlight coming through the bank's windows - they were so brown and glowing. I was stunned by his eyes. I love it that a person can still wow you after you've looked at them so long, that you still see these gorgeous things, that you don't get tired of it. And he said I should go to the Metropolitan tonight, and not surprisingly, I will probably be there. His friendliness seems like a really good thing after those messages sent to him. I don't know what this means. I don't care. I do a little. But I am too giddy for it distract me from being happy.
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